OMG! What good are these cats???
If they just sit there patiently -- one might even say, silently (!!) -- on the bed, staring down at you and allowing you to oversleep by nearly an hour!!!
Ack!
But here I am -- no, oversleeping didn't make me late for my blog post (!!), it's just that I like to be awake by a certain ridiculously early hour of the morning. I like to have a couple of solid hours where it's just me in the world and nobody else (except cats, that is). (Oh, and guess what! The birds are starting to sing now in the morning! Isn't that great??? Spring must be just around the corner!)
Well, I was up by 5:35 -- I guess that's a time that most people would feel is ridiculous enough.
What was worse was that I was still tired. I think it's b/c yesterday morning, for no real good reason, I tried this new energy drink which tore through my nervous system like a barreling freight train. Never again!! The only energy drink I like is 5-Hour Energy -- it never makes me feel shredded alive while it's happening or completely wiped out when it 's done. Jesus.
Okay!
As you can tell by yesterday's post, gang, life gets better by the minute!! And this doesn't even count other developments going on that I haven't blogged about-- possible public appearances this year in Paris, maybe London & Bristol (in addition to New Orleans in May). Things I am really, really excited about!! And so far, my anxiety disorder is staying completely in check, which is kind of astounding to behold.
You know, the other night, I finally saw the film Black Swan and I HATED it !!!!!!!!!!!! Not that it isn't a good film that is well-executed, and the acting is superb, really. It's just that the female character, Nina, is so ME!! That's exactly what it feels like to be an isolated perfectionist, driven to the absolute furthest end of one's shredded tether by this need to be perfect, to succeed. Losing your ability to tell what's real and what's not. Watching the movie felt like I was watching myself pushed to the extreme. If I hadn't been at the film with a friend, I would have left. It was too intense.
Still, it was a well-made movie, it's just that I could have lived happily for all the rest of the days of my life without ever having seen it.
When I told a friend about this experience I had of watching the movie & about how it fucked up a really great day I'd been having, she suggested that it was the Universe giving me continued clarity on how great things are going right now, compared to how they used to be.
I'll buy that!! It's just my size!!
And hey!! It looks like a re-make of The Great Gatsby is really happening, folks, with Leonardo DiCaprio playing Jay Gatsby!! Yay!! I can't wait. I think he's going to be really, really great in that role. The rest of the cast (or the lead players, at any rate), aren't knocking my socks off but you never know. It'll probably all be splendid.
Next on my list of movies I want to see before the "big day" -- no, not the Oscars (!!), I'm talking about the premiere of Rango !! Yay!! -- are: Another Year, Biutiful, maybe Blue Valentine, although I'm not sure I need to be shown audio-visually just how much love truly sucks; I think I already know.
You know, the other night, the night of my big champagne celebration, my cousin said to me: "The doctor told me I have to have surgery."
Me: "No, really? You're kidding."
She: "No."
Me: "When -- right away?"
She: "March 2nd."
Me (suddenly grasping at anything that is bolted down as my legs begin to buckle under me): "But, but --'
She: "I know."
Me: "March 4th is the Rango premiere!! Oh no!! What are we going to do??"
She: "Don't worry, I'll be able to walk by then."
Me: "You're sure?"
She: "The doctor said so."
Me (awash in the euphoria of sudden relief): "Hey, does this mean you can take a sick day from work?????"
She: "Yep -- this means we can go to the early show!!" (Delirium all the way around!)
Which is worse, gang, the fact that this dialogue is pretty much verbatim? Or that I could be this self-involved about seeing a silly movie?? Or that the movie is basically A CARTOON and I'm 50 years old????
Ah well, look around me: Not married, no kids, a gloriously misspent youth trailing like a happy cloud behind me wherever I go... it all adds up to who I am right this minute. Quelle surpise, oui??
Okay! Catch ya later, gang, Gotta scoot now!! Have a terrific Friday wherever you are! Thanks for visiting! (And here's hoping you woke-up in time to get wherever it is you need to be!)
[No, not my cats; someone else's good-for-nothing sleepy cats!]
Ack!
But here I am -- no, oversleeping didn't make me late for my blog post (!!), it's just that I like to be awake by a certain ridiculously early hour of the morning. I like to have a couple of solid hours where it's just me in the world and nobody else (except cats, that is). (Oh, and guess what! The birds are starting to sing now in the morning! Isn't that great??? Spring must be just around the corner!)
Well, I was up by 5:35 -- I guess that's a time that most people would feel is ridiculous enough.
What was worse was that I was still tired. I think it's b/c yesterday morning, for no real good reason, I tried this new energy drink which tore through my nervous system like a barreling freight train. Never again!! The only energy drink I like is 5-Hour Energy -- it never makes me feel shredded alive while it's happening or completely wiped out when it 's done. Jesus.
Okay!
As you can tell by yesterday's post, gang, life gets better by the minute!! And this doesn't even count other developments going on that I haven't blogged about-- possible public appearances this year in Paris, maybe London & Bristol (in addition to New Orleans in May). Things I am really, really excited about!! And so far, my anxiety disorder is staying completely in check, which is kind of astounding to behold.
You know, the other night, I finally saw the film Black Swan and I HATED it !!!!!!!!!!!! Not that it isn't a good film that is well-executed, and the acting is superb, really. It's just that the female character, Nina, is so ME!! That's exactly what it feels like to be an isolated perfectionist, driven to the absolute furthest end of one's shredded tether by this need to be perfect, to succeed. Losing your ability to tell what's real and what's not. Watching the movie felt like I was watching myself pushed to the extreme. If I hadn't been at the film with a friend, I would have left. It was too intense.
Still, it was a well-made movie, it's just that I could have lived happily for all the rest of the days of my life without ever having seen it.
When I told a friend about this experience I had of watching the movie & about how it fucked up a really great day I'd been having, she suggested that it was the Universe giving me continued clarity on how great things are going right now, compared to how they used to be.
I'll buy that!! It's just my size!!
And hey!! It looks like a re-make of The Great Gatsby is really happening, folks, with Leonardo DiCaprio playing Jay Gatsby!! Yay!! I can't wait. I think he's going to be really, really great in that role. The rest of the cast (or the lead players, at any rate), aren't knocking my socks off but you never know. It'll probably all be splendid.
Next on my list of movies I want to see before the "big day" -- no, not the Oscars (!!), I'm talking about the premiere of Rango !! Yay!! -- are: Another Year, Biutiful, maybe Blue Valentine, although I'm not sure I need to be shown audio-visually just how much love truly sucks; I think I already know.
You know, the other night, the night of my big champagne celebration, my cousin said to me: "The doctor told me I have to have surgery."
Me: "No, really? You're kidding."
She: "No."
Me: "When -- right away?"
She: "March 2nd."
Me (suddenly grasping at anything that is bolted down as my legs begin to buckle under me): "But, but --'
She: "I know."
Me: "March 4th is the Rango premiere!! Oh no!! What are we going to do??"
She: "Don't worry, I'll be able to walk by then."
Me: "You're sure?"
She: "The doctor said so."
Me (awash in the euphoria of sudden relief): "Hey, does this mean you can take a sick day from work?????"
She: "Yep -- this means we can go to the early show!!" (Delirium all the way around!)
Which is worse, gang, the fact that this dialogue is pretty much verbatim? Or that I could be this self-involved about seeing a silly movie?? Or that the movie is basically A CARTOON and I'm 50 years old????
Ah well, look around me: Not married, no kids, a gloriously misspent youth trailing like a happy cloud behind me wherever I go... it all adds up to who I am right this minute. Quelle surpise, oui??
Okay! Catch ya later, gang, Gotta scoot now!! Have a terrific Friday wherever you are! Thanks for visiting! (And here's hoping you woke-up in time to get wherever it is you need to be!)
[No, not my cats; someone else's good-for-nothing sleepy cats!]
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