Well, okay. Began the dropping off of the Christmas cookies yesterday afternoon. Visited 2 people, neither of whom were in their offices and I wasn't able to wait around (I was having a really hard day yesterday; one of those days where it felt miraculous that I was even able to drive my car, reality felt so foreign to me). So I became the Christmas Elf, left the tins of cookies on their desks and then disappeared into the Christmas Elf ether.

Then went off to see mom and take her a Christmas cake that I had baked her -- dates & nuts & cinnamon & cloves. Had grilled cheese sandwiches and tomato soup with her -- perfect for the absolutely freezing cold weather.

Then, of course, when I'd stopped in at the library to pick up Faubourg 36, I'm Not There was also waiting in my slot. So I had to hurry home and start watching movies! Crimony!

Faubourg 36 was kind of long. But it was quirky and interesting and the cinematography was really lovely. I was not up for reading subtitles but I absolutely couldn't make heads or tails of the French, so subtitles, it was. I'm  honestly not sure what I thought of that movie. I really just don't know. I felt like I was off in la-la land and the movie was just sort of rolling before my eyes, but there was that added stress of having to read all those subtitles. I guess it felt like "work". But it was nice to be curled up on the couch in the family room with Bunny & Buster for a change. I have a small Christmas tree down there and blue lights strung up, etc., and I don't get to spend much time in there b/c -- why??? -- b/c I'm always in front of the fucking laptop working on something. Thank you very much.

(I keep thinking that when Jay moves here -- next weekend, finally -- I'm going to stop working so freakin' much. I might be kidding myself, but we shall soon see.)

This morning, I woke up feeling a few degrees better than I felt yesterday so I'm going to try to expoloit that to its fullest. I woke up in the dark, which I always love -- I love being up before the sun is up, it helps me feel like I have time -- away from the rest of the world. No one needs me for anything yet when it's still dark out. So I got breakfast together, took it back to bed and hung out with Fluffy and watched Public Enemies for a while. So that was nice. We'll see how this day goes. I have every intention of getting back on top today and staying there.

Off to do yoga now & meditate. Here's an idea: some people, even total strangers, sometimes need an extra dose of love sent out into the Universe just for them. I believe it finds them, somehow, some way. I'm going to make that effort -- and not just b/c it's Christmastime, but b/c my heart truly aches when I think that this particular person might be truly struggling with something that I just don't understand. It haunts me, in fact. It has all the earmarks of "something being not right." (Sorry to be so cryptic but, as you know, I can't post absolutely everything on a blog.)

Okay, gang, on that note, have a light & love-filled Saturday, wherever you are! Thanks for visiting. See ya.